Saturday, December 22, 2007

I believe...

I jus simply love my MBA coaching classes....even if I haven't really been able to show gr8 results...they're not to be blamed...its just that I still have a lot to learn and they have given me a sense of direction in life and taught me that the world is much bigger than I thought it was and that there is sooo much to be done, all in one lifetime!!
with so many people coming from all kinds of places, n the fierce competition they pose it feels like somebody pulled me out of my comfort zone where I knew I was better than the rest n put me at a place which made me realize I am not even fit to survive!!
And in spite of that I simply love it because now at least I have a chance to fight n have lots to do simply to prove that I am worth it!They have shown me a way as to how can I never look back and say my life was wasted!!

Anyhow this is not why I am writing today...but because I had a gr8 communication skills building class today where we were being taught SQ- spirituality quotient!and the teacher told us how important it is to know your own self simply coz if you don't know well enough bout what you are and what do you want from life there is no way you can be a good manager and know what you want for the organization you'll be working with!
And as an exercise all of us were required to write down a few things we believe in and tell her one each!!
And it was more than wonderful to know what all things people believe in!!Here are a few I have somehow managed to remember:-
"I believe in me" (surely is the most important thing)
"I believe am the best judge of myself" (too presumptuous!)
"I believe I am very selfish" (resulted in a huge applause for d lady for being plain honest!!)
"I believe heroes aren't supernatural people...they just fight a minute more when others give up" (I’d really like to try this once!:P)
"I believe India will be a developed country by 2020!"(Amen)
"I believe what I believe is true!"(v tricky :P)
n lots more....
n now here is a list of what all I believe in....I jus hope I never have to unbelieve em!!

1) I believe there is nothing called will power, all it takes is a decision on ones part!!
those who know me well know exactly how important a role has this belief played in my life....it made me believe in the power of ones own self n that nothing is unachievable if you really want it!
2) I believe in living for myself and making myself happy!!
I do what I do simply because it makes me happy...I don’t have better reasons in life! In fact I’ve never really understood people who say they live for others because nobody can live for anybody else! Seeing others happy might make you happy n u might be tempted to say that you live for their happiness but then it is simply coz it makes u happy too!! A person who can take care of his own happiness will eventually make people around him happy as well!
3) I believe in living so that I can learn n not learning so that I can live!
I want more years to my life simply coz I want to learn as much as I can...be it about my country, its politics, people around the world, food!, technology or just anything under the sun! My list is endless! I wish to do work which I like n not because it will pay me well or make my parents proud! I want it to give meaning to my life.
4) I believe in accepting people as they are!!
Never do I want people around me to change n be like me....simply coz there is so much to learn when they are different, they show you what you cannot see with your own eyes, its like having too many views of a single picture that life is! If certain people make you unhappy then its better to find those who don't and make better use of the one life you have than try to change people n make everybody miserable!
5) I believe in saying whatever I have in my heart!
again...one life....short life...you can make the most of each day by saying what you feel to whoever you want to...those who mean a lot should know n those who don’t might be able to help n make things better simply if they know how you feel! voice your opinions, have the courage to change what you cannot accept and the humility to accept what you cannot....simply by speaking out...try it if you still haven't....makes life a lot better...n u surely have nothing to loose!:)
I’ve got many more but these are the ones I’d always want to hold onto!
And I would love to know all of yours beliefs as well...as many as they might be!!So you guys can take it as a tag (lemme know bout it) or simply leave 'em as comments here....I would love to learn from all of you!! :)

n I don't think ill b back before next year since I have my exams going on so herez wishing all of you a merry Christmas and a happy new year!!:)

Monday, December 10, 2007

random updates!!

i knw ive been away fo a long time nw....actually there was lots happening n i dint feel like saying a word bout it....i was just waiting fo "wats next" n hoping atleast smthing wud b gud enuff to deserve a mention here....n makin smebdyz visit to this page worthwhile!!

but forgetful as i am....i forgot wat id realized n taught myself...its not d achievements dat matter....its not anniversaries dat one should wait for, to celebrate....its d journey which got u there is wat u'll always cherish!!

n so i am back on track with loads to share n i dnt think m gonna stop nw!!hav had enuff of sitting n contemplating bou d future....n nw i just wanna live!!\:D/

starting from whr i left....herez all that ive been upto:-

had a ball on my birthday....celebrated it twice this year...once with all the frendz n family...once with just him ;) if i eva want to believe in god....its fo all these ppl he blessed me with who neva fail to remind me of all the good things life has in store fo us....god's been real kind!!

nd between dat i also "finallyyy" got to meet two of my fav ppl...mann n tanuj...was gr8 to see d two ppl i've learnt so much from in person!!love ya guys n i mean it!!muah!

thn thr was CAT...which i screwed royally....no chance of me gettin anywhr thru CAT atleast!!
n thn i screwed IIFT, MAT, JMET n d next in line waitin to b screwed are SNAP, NMAT, XAT, FMS,DU!n thn therez NIFT which i don't wanna screw at any cost....its been my dream fo years nw!!

therez a whole new world which i had dreamt of while i was preparin fo mba!! nw with each passing exam..it seems to b going farther n farther away!! still hopin to make d best of wateverz left nw!!

n thn thr was his bday which made me realise hw bad can i b in makin sme1z day spcl!! :P i actually do wonder if i eva hav been able to make him happy....i jus knw i do d best i can!

n nw comes d bestest part!!
d colej fest is coming up n evn though i hav always done so much to run away from it n neva wanted to b a part of it in d last 3 yrs of colej....this time i jus wanted to do something....n get away from d self procured "i think im wasted" title! so i went ahead n gave interviews for d colej internal press....evn though everyone told me dat my chances of becoming d head are bleak since i hav no prior experience n there are ppl who deserve it more than i do!! i still believed in me n thought i will atleast try once! n d good news is dat i hav been selected to head d colej press n nw i cant wait to release newspaperz of my own!!i keep plannin things all the time!!

fo d first time ever ive realised d power of believin in myself!! n ofcoz m soo happyyy :)

evn though i will have to fight a lot with my oh so protective dad to realise all my dreams n achieve all d goals ive set fo myself....im ready to do it....but i really cant continue suffocating myself jus to make ppl happy!! my okt about me which keeps changin with my moods, nw says "on a journey from wat i 'should' to wat i 'want'!" v much says d fighter in me is back in action!! :D

thats pretty much d imp updates!!even though i hav lots to blab about....but m gonna end here with a few lines on my lips which are jus perfect to appease my 'right nw' confused soul who doesn knw wat she wants from her love?? "acceptance which will come with a set of expectations (difficlt to handle) " or "anonimity which keeps d future tensions at bay (but brings along lotsa disappointments) "

kahoon kis se main ke kya hai, shab-e-gham buree bala hai

mujhe kya bura tha marna agar ek baar hota

tere waade par jiye ham to ye jaan jhoot jaana

khushee se mar na jaate agar 'eitabaar hota

i jus hope i figure a way out soon!till thn tadaz!hope to b bak soon!:)

P.S.: sorry to all those who hav been commenting on my earlier posts...i havent been able to reply coz blogger is actin nasty but m sure ill fix it soon!